Stuck in the Middle

Do you guys know whats the most difficult problem that you will definately face in your life ? That is you're being the middle person and you don't know which side to help . Well I face it today . Is it I'm too lucky or unlucky ? Best friend and boyfriend ... Who will you help first if you're me ? I hope I can help both of them . And that fucking China bitch damn kepo also . Go away la bitch . Don't interfere my life . *Sigh* Hope everything is going to be okay naturally . T^T

~MJ~
~Heavy heart today~

It's 3.34am now and I can't sleep. So many things in my mind right now... VERY worried~!! Can you trust someone that you love so much?? I've been through this situation for like so many times and I don't dare to believe in this kind of stuff anymore. But to maintain a relationship, the most important thing is TRUST. How can I find that feeling back again? Don't get jealous and get mad easily without any reasons?.. I don't think I can do it cause of my attitude. Plus I believe that every single girl in this world will be like me. If the girl won't get jealous and mad means that she don't care about you and love you anymore. Can't guys stand on the girls sides and think about it and stop complaining and blaming on the girls~!!!


~MJ~
~heavy heart~

你找到了吗？

问问心里最深处…你是否拥有一个，就一个…值得你为他付出真心的朋友？
听好，是真心。 =)
~拥有一个真心朋友胜于千千万万的朋友~
你……找到了吗? 也许一生中你不会遇到，但若你遇到了，请你好好珍惜。

~ting~

FINALLY!! xD

OMG! MAI JIUN!! xD surprise?? hahahahaha ... this is my 2nd post i think @@ xP seeee o.O i remember the password and the username dy. LOL

Im having 3 topic tests, 1 assignment test and english presentation for my research project next week. and yet.. im not ready and prepared. >.<

Final coming soon~ same goes to Mj, Nan and Per, and those who are taking a level. u guys gonna have ur AS exam SOON! hahaha!! me also lar.. let's gambateh together =)))

Another 1 month++ and IM FREE!!! Long long holidays waiting me ^.^ Gonna study for my chemistry quiz jor. chem quiz is on this friday. intermolecular bonding + lewis diagram <3>

ps, i will try my best to update this blog =P LOL


~ting~

[PV] JUJU - Hello, Again～昔からある場所～ (Ballad Ver.)

I love this video a lots when my dearest Perlyn show me this.It is really a touching video.I cried when watching it.DAMN TOUCHING!!!!!

Hanging Out With Chang

Hey my baby blog!!Mummy here to update you again ^^ I have met a guy friend who saw me carrying a pink bag and everyday walking to school when I was in secondary.We didn't know each other when he added me in facebook recently.His name is Low Wee Chang,older than me 1 year.He study Canadian Pre-U at Taylor College which is near to Inti Subang Jaya.His house is also just a stone throw away from my house and we live there for many years.This world is so small huh?!Well I'm glad that is small cause if didn't I wouldn't have known him also rite? :D


Yesterday we went out together.He drove to my house and fetched me to Dataran Pahlawan.Erm...What I'm going to say is that this is the first time i saw a guy who drive very carefully and slowly.Not that I want to say that he drive very slow la...As in he very 'si wen'...LOL!!He sooooo gonna kill me if he see this...SHHHH~ haha!!We watched a horror movie call 'A Nightmare In The Elm Street'.This is the movie I always wanted to watch and finally got people can accompany me.WEEE!!!


The beginning of the movie i already start to feel scared because of the sound effect of the song,but the main reason is got three stupid malay girls sitting near both of us scream very very VERY LOUD!!Walao...not scared also become scared already la.Well...At least I'm not the one who sitting beside them..Is Chang...Lucky me!!LOL!!After that we went to the field and took some pictures.

Then we also went back home lo.While in the car,we talked about our past love story to each other.I'm very glad i have a friend like Chang,he is really a nice guy besides than Richard.Hmm....This Friday Chang going to have his final exam then after the exam for two days,he will still at college for another two weeks then he will going to graduate.On September he'll going to Canada to further his study.Still got 93 days to go till September....*SIGH*...Think till here I feel a bit sad cause so late only know him but at least i know him now rite? :) Well good luck in his exam this friday and hope he'll get a VERY EXCELLENT results.Baby blog also must wish him luck ya.Like that mummy only love you know?haha!Oh yea!Had fun with Chang yesterday also.

~MJ~

~Take all my luck with you :) ~

My lovely blog!!so long I never update you...sorry ya...mummy still love you de k...today I update you k??hehe^^ Well on wednesday which is 12th of May,me,Richard and Ah Nan went to watch When In Rome at Midvalley.This is the movie I always wanted to watch but hor...not really nice as I aspected lo...but still okay la.After finish watching the movie,we went to food court had dinner.Continue the incident hor...DAMN FUNNY le.LOL!!

We went to a place near my college there to have dessert,I think the place is call FBI if didn't mistaken.At first we play a game,chinese is call "mu ji"...english ar....er....I don't know le...haha!Play till half way Richard said lose have to denda....Ah Nan said who lose then squad under the table and counted to three....wa piang!!but hor you know who lose not??!!RICHARD le..my god!!And he really really really do it know.LOL!!

This is the picture of richard.His shirt too short till can see his blue undies le.shh~ LOL!

Then we play the second time...and this time who lose have to shout hello to the people opposite...and this round...sigh~im the one who lose the game...nguek nguek!!T~T Don't think that I don't dare lo...I REALLY DO IT LE!!!First time ever I do this kind of stupid thing in public...my god!!Damn damn damn funny tell you.Ah Nan recorded the whole process.Have a look at it ba.lol

Then we played the last round.Ah Nan won't lose de lo then me and Richard wanted her to lose so badly sial.LOL!!Finally the god help us....Ah Nan lose jor.hehehe :P She went to a game center there and keep waving her hand to those people.Only a guy look at her in the weird way.haha!I recorded her ^^

Well that's the end of the day going out with both of them.Really really really crazy la.hope no one notice us at Inti la.AMITOFO~ ahahaha!!

~MJ

~heart Inti

jj hang out

Today went out with my best friend,yah nan and guess what??!!We went to new jj by bus le....FIRST TIME le and is only RM1.50 from dp to there...LOL!!Both of us just sit down then feel very excited man...ahaha!!Anyway this thursday me and nan will go to kl to have a look at taylor and sunway college.I'm very scared both of us not going to the same college in the end but hope can la.Sigh~growing up is a bad thing to me...everything is just too fast...want everything to slow down and remain the same like secondary life especially form3 that year.Well having fun today with nan :)

take pic with our first bus tickets XD

nan bought this at sub :)

~Jiun/Nien

jetty hang out

Today work until 6.30pm,then went to jetty with fennie and ah boon they all.Well this is the first time i go to jetty...know what you going to say la...SUA GU ma!!!LOL!!I like the view there...especially at night very nice and romantic.Fennie said is the best place to be emo...haha!Guess wat?!i drink one bottle of heineken le....first time i drink finish and is without sharing le...im being a bad girl sial...lol.but after drink dy very very headache lo...luckily didnt vomit la.Saw his profile...keep wondering what he said...dont really understand.sigh~nevermind la.Anyway had fun with u all tonight..love ya!! :)

~Jiun/Nien

Found!

well, guess what? lols! i just found out that someone is so handsome and cool recently. and he is JERRY YAN! when he smiles, omg so charming! when he acts cool, one word: perfect! ahahhaa!! u might think that im crazy right now. xixi =) btw, this show is nice! Jerry Yan and Ella Chen i wish someone download it and so i can copy haha ^^

The 100th Day

Today is the 100th day of me being together with him.I should be happy rite??but whole day I bu shuang.Anyway guess what??I at Jia Yun's shop there writing my blog..LOL!!Haiz..today argue with him again.Don't know why I bu shuang then I'll just release my anger to him if he done something that make me pek chek and unhappy.Finish my work at 6pm go find him the 2nd time but he like don't have reaction like that.Saw him replying msg to his friends and I ask myself how come he didn't even reply me once.Plus most of the time is i msg him first.I tell him and he said he just reload...but just reload also can reply me but he didn't and he can msg his friend during work somemore.Feel upset then go find Jia Yun and confess to her.I didn't say anything then i just cry out.Jia Yun talk about valentine's day and what he give me as present.Jia Yun say how sweet and he care for me,I only realise that how much he love me but i just treat him the way I like only.I regret I send him that msg...I want to rewind the time so bad but can't.Wanted to say sorry to him but I don't know how to tell him and I don't wanna take the first step cause I scared he won't forgive me.Lou gong zai...I really am sorry....Today is the 100th day and I want both of us to be happy...really really sorry...

~jiuNien 4eva~
~Mj~

Haiz...actually planning going out with him today but he wake up late.DAMN LATE that type.Then have to cancel everything lo.Walao a...go out with friends can wake up early la but go out with me everytime late,if not then cant wake up.If like that then don't ask me go out!!I rather go out with other people I'm not close with also don't want go out with you.Your chinese new year last holidays also can't spend the time with me is it!!Only know must go visit and get ang pao.Work start at 6pm today,at least at brands outlet there got friends accompany me.Well make me feel better a bit when listen to their jokes and work with them.Whole day damn bu shuang and bo mood sial.Hate this kind of feelings...CCB!!!Feel like want to confess my feelings to ying but she seems busy and I don't want to disturb her.YAH NAN!!How come everytime when I need you,you everytime at outstation de....like last year like that...at least you will say damn fei and lame jokes to comfort me just to make me feel better and stop crying...faster come back..!! T~T

~MJ

Valentine's Chinese New Year Day

Yesterday is the 1st day of Chinese New Year and also Valentine's Day.Afternoon went out with Jay and Ying Ying.Three of us went to watch a new movie called "72 fang zhu ke" while waiting for my hubby.To me the movie not really nice la...got some part funny only then other than that very boring.Told nan about it and you know what she said?She said is because he's not with me so everything is not nice...walao...sibeh swt lo.... ==" The movie a bit boring nevermind la...the worst is I saw a small cockroach crawling over the chairs in front of me lor...geli!!When movie finished,I go find my hubby near dreambox there.Saw him sitting at the bench there and holding a "chocolate flower"(he made it himslef).Walao...I very very very shuang dao sial...LOL!!Everywhere I go people sure will look at the "chocolate flower".Then hubby bring me go er...I forgot the shop's name...near Old Town there mum mum.Upload some of the pictures ;)

the "chocolate flower" he made for me.me like :)

my hubby's valentine present

these words i xing ku cut it from magazine...nice le ^^

banana chocolate cake & sunrise

nothing better to do XD

1st time take pic with hubby with my new hairstyle

me and hubby ^-^

ney and pie

nah..took pic with the chocolate flower jor..happy dy ma pie pie??hee^^

At night went to fennie's house there eat cause got open house but while at there got something sad happened.Well having a blast Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day this year.

~jiuNien 4eva~
~ MJ ~

缘分的奇妙

她的伤口好不容易已经复合了，
不敢再次让它受伤。。。
虽然会有多少的遗憾，
但好过再次让它受伤。
那种滋味，感觉，
真的很不好受。
成功的机会很渺茫，
她不愿，也不敢去尝试，
因为她知道。。曾经受伤的滋味。
若明知道是不可能的事，
那就别再逞强了，
学会放松了拳头，
才能找回失去的快乐。=）

《缘分》，
它是什么？
它很奇妙对吧。
缘分让我们相遇，
但最后让我们彼此分开。
珍惜你现在拥有的一切，
别失去了才后悔莫及。
珍惜你身边的人。。。
~ting~

HappyHappy

happy happy happy!! ~~ haha now is early in the morning...aroung 7.20am. eating cereal =) healthy healthy breakfast haha. today, classes until 1pm only ^^ ytd chat with MJ omg.. so long didnt talk to her dy..HAPPY! LOL!!! la la la... tmr is friday! i love friday so much.. can go bek home =) nasi lemak,roti canai,prawn mee,laksa,dim sum,chicken rice,etc.. XD ~home sweet home~

~happy happy happy~
~ting~ :)

I have been working for almost half a month.At first I'm happy because got people want to employ me but later I'm tired of working.Everyday very boring cause don't have people but luckily got Ah Wong and Susan accompany me talking and gossiping.Anyway me and him kinda "settle" our problems but there still got a scar between us.I still don't know whether he still love me like he used to not.Today after working go find Jia Yun,then after awhile we saw Ying and Jay.Suddenly my heart hurts cause both of them let me remind of me and him...how sweet when both of us being together...feel like want to see him straight away.Ying and Jay accompany me go Parkson find him.At first I'm very relax but I getting more scare when is going to reach.When reach there i just stand at a place where he can't see me,saw him that time i realize that he a bit thin already then he cut his hair.Just see him one minute then i follow Ying and Jay go back to Dataran.Think till awhile I told Ying I want to find him again so i turn back again.This time i stop in front of the counter there and look at him.Saw him doing something and when he look up,he saw me already.His reaction is like how come you will come like that,that kind of a bit shocking look.He asked me "zuo me" silently quite far away from me.I just shook my head and smile at him.I wanted to walk near and talk to him but I don't dare anymore cause i saw some of the supervisors there and scared he don't like.So i just stood there for a few minutes and he continue to do his stuff.I didn't say much and walk away cause i feel like crying...don't know why i got this kind of feeling...maybe miss him too much and we didn't meet for like almost two weeks...plus I don't want to cry in front of him.Reach Dataran and I go find Jia Yun again cause want to tell her I saw him already.Tell her half way my tears almost rolling down from my cheeks but i control it.When walk back i cry....i miss christmas eve that night....those things u said to me...i love you...lots lots...

Pie & Princess

I heard your name before when I was young
But I didn't bothered to notice you
Starting from that depressed year of mine
When me and him were together
You appeared in my life
You're always there when everything falls apart
And it seems like the world is crashing at my feet
You make me feel so secure everyday
Since then we became best friend
You said you only trust one person in this world which is me
I'm very happy when u said that to me
We became very close and thing started to change
Because I'm starting to fall for you
But you loved her very much that time
And I only can love you silently
Even though it hurts me when u talked about her
I hate the way she treated you
But in the end we be together naturally until now
Unfortunately problems begin to appear non stop
You told me you thought of her before when you being with me
Although is long time ago but you just stab me with a knife
You message one of my friends without telling me
I feel like I'm being betray but you didn't care and insist that you are right
You don't know what's limit that I'm talking about
You said those limits will spoil your friendships
But do you know that it will spoil our relationship??
You won't eat with me together when we're having break time
You don't let me find you even you are having break time
Since then we argue everyday cause can't communicate nicely
You don't find me anymore like you used to
Every sleepless night I keep staring at my phone for your "attendance"
I'm tired to be last one to know your things
You told me that you still love me like before
But how come I can't feel it?
You left me in the cold everyday
How cold could you be again?
What would you do it you were me?
I'm better off if it's a mystery
I'm starting to believe him that I'm just a snack to you
Please don't say it is so
Tell my heart it's not goodbye
I wanna kiss your lips forever
Stay with me...this is what i need...please??

~heartache~
~ MJ ~

college's life

First of all, i want to say sorry to mai jiun coz i din update our blog since spm i think. lol i hav read tru all the blogs which were written by MJ. Wat's make me to update tis blog is coz of tis >>
PS:ting when you only want to update this blog??!! everytime i update only.... chicken ass!!!!
LOL!! kla blogging now. chill :D
Tru FB, i saw her relationship status there change to it's complicated and some of her posts. So i agak agak noe wat's happenning. Hm.. as the saying goes, " the moon will become full after it wanes. " chill MJ.
I really hope tat u n nan come inti to study le... march intake. Everyday in class, act lyk a quiet guai guai gal.. in fact, im nt tat quiet type wan lo,haha i can be very noisy n talkative if my gang is here. =( meet some new friends, bt nt so close to them yet. If both u come, then we can go library study, eat tog, n hav lots of funs!! bt, now, haiz... MJ!! come la!!! ish XD
I miss my friends so much.. MJ, JY, Nan, Fen, Jen, Wong, Ying,Yanxi, Enthal, n of coz Perlyn XD our great perlyn. :P i miss u all so much !!!
Hw's life in inti?? many ppl asked. At first, i'll say, i enjoy the freedom over here. bt now, after 1 week dy, i start to get bored. coz no close friend over here. It's so great if MJ is beside me now. stay tog, chat with her or do assignment till midnite Woo~~ den everymorning wake her up(surely im the one who gotta wake her up) DEFINITELY! LOL!! den walk to sch tog. n enjoy the college's life over here. bt yet... T.T hey, when u r reading tis blog rite, think agn, INTI!! it's really a nice place. The environment is good conducive for studying. ^^ haiz.. MAIJIUN!!! =(
I was taking art stream last week, bt i change my major dy lol > Sc stream. i found tat im more interested in sc than art. so lyk tat lo. there r 42 students in my class now. @.@ chemistry.. the calculations gosh!! it's harder n more complicated than F5 wan.. n i missed the 1st class. so very blur nw. luckily the lecturer is very nice n good. she gonna giv us some classes for the new students who didnt attend her class for the 1st week. yay =) n it reminds me of PN POH!! i miss her so much XD N now, all the bio/che reports hav to do it all by urself. no more copying from the books. the hardest part is discussions.
PS: MJ, i'll update tis blog when im free =)
~take care~
~written by ting~

Heartache

This year is definitely not my year
So many unhappy things happen to me
God...please tell me why not other person but me??
Have been working for almost two weeks
And I'm already stressing out like hell
Working with one of my friends until both of us unhappy
Mostly is because of our boss
Wanted to share my feelings with you
But all you do is giving me problems in this relationship
I admit I get jealous easily....I scold you badly when I'm mad
All you did is blame it all on me
Only want me to care about your feelings
But what about mine??do you even care!!?NOT ONCE!!
You told me to be more open-minded...lol....FINE!!
Told you that you must have limit between your friends which are girls
But you told me how to limit...fuck!!don't you act stupid in front of me okay
Don't know how to limit then go have sex with those bitches
Message with her didn't tell me...fine!!
Asked you who started the conversation first....you said both also got
And the message u save it in your hp
Want to let the time pass only u can delete it??
What the hell is this!!??conclusion is you still think of her
Asked me to don't call you cause you're tired!?
If you really love that person,no matter how tired you will still want to talk to her
You're just giving some lame excuses again
One hour break if find me don't have time to eat??
You think I don't know she work at mp there is it!!??
You giving me this excuse because you don't want me to know you eating with her during your break time is it!!
You dare do then why don't you admit!!
If don't have and you blame me cause i don't believe you de hua
You know why i don't believe you??
Because all the things u done make me don't believe you anymore
Everything keep to yourself....don't tell me that you don't want to hurt me as an excuse again
I'm tired of your attitude!!!
Asked me to change??!!you don't have the right to say this
Because you also didn't change yours!!
Plus everytime you just giving me insecure feelings
Maybe Lix is right after all
You just treat me as your snack and after that throw it away
Fennie and Nan told me you become like this cause you don't love me anymore...
I don't want to believe them...but how can i don't??
You told me you love me but now like this....
You love someone else already and you don't love me anymore is it??
Please tell me is not....I'm begging you....
I don't know what to do anymore
The more I say you...the more we argue and ended up crying
I just want you to know that I care about you a lots...maybe too over
I become like this cause I really scared of losing you
Because I feel insecure
And I can't compete with others....I know I'll lose in the end
Remember the feelings when she being with him??or you can't understand her??
This is how I feel from the starting until now
Lou gong zai and lou po zai will have a happy ending ma??

~still love you~