Heartache

This year is definitely not my year
So many unhappy things happen to me
God...please tell me why not other person but me??
Have been working for almost two weeks
And I'm already stressing out like hell
Working with one of my friends until both of us unhappy
Mostly is because of our boss
Wanted to share my feelings with you
But all you do is giving me problems in this relationship
I admit I get jealous easily....I scold you badly when I'm mad
All you did is blame it all on me
Only want me to care about your feelings
But what about mine??do you even care!!?NOT ONCE!!
You told me to be more open-minded...lol....FINE!!
Told you that you must have limit between your friends which are girls
But you told me how to limit...fuck!!don't you act stupid in front of me okay
Don't know how to limit then go have sex with those bitches
Message with her didn't tell me...fine!!
Asked you who started the conversation first....you said both also got
And the message u save it in your hp
Want to let the time pass only u can delete it??
What the hell is this!!??conclusion is you still think of her
Asked me to don't call you cause you're tired!?
If you really love that person,no matter how tired you will still want to talk to her
You're just giving some lame excuses again
One hour break if find me don't have time to eat??
You think I don't know she work at mp there is it!!??
You giving me this excuse because you don't want me to know you eating with her during your break time is it!!
You dare do then why don't you admit!!
If don't have and you blame me cause i don't believe you de hua
You know why i don't believe you??
Because all the things u done make me don't believe you anymore
Everything keep to yourself....don't tell me that you don't want to hurt me as an excuse again
I'm tired of your attitude!!!
Asked me to change??!!you don't have the right to say this
Because you also didn't change yours!!
Plus everytime you just giving me insecure feelings
Maybe Lix is right after all
You just treat me as your snack and after that throw it away
Fennie and Nan told me you become like this cause you don't love me anymore...
I don't want to believe them...but how can i don't??
You told me you love me but now like this....
You love someone else already and you don't love me anymore is it??
Please tell me is not....I'm begging you....
I don't know what to do anymore
The more I say you...the more we argue and ended up crying
I just want you to know that I care about you a lots...maybe too over
I become like this cause I really scared of losing you
Because I feel insecure
And I can't compete with others....I know I'll lose in the end
Remember the feelings when she being with him??or you can't understand her??
This is how I feel from the starting until now
Lou gong zai and lou po zai will have a happy ending ma??

~still love you~