HappyHappy

happy happy happy!! ~~ haha now is early in the morning...aroung 7.20am. eating cereal =) healthy healthy breakfast haha. today, classes until 1pm only ^^ ytd chat with MJ omg.. so long didnt talk to her dy..HAPPY! LOL!!! la la la... tmr is friday! i love friday so much.. can go bek home =) nasi lemak,roti canai,prawn mee,laksa,dim sum,chicken rice,etc.. XD ~home sweet home~

~happy happy happy~
~ting~ :)

I have been working for almost half a month.At first I'm happy because got people want to employ me but later I'm tired of working.Everyday very boring cause don't have people but luckily got Ah Wong and Susan accompany me talking and gossiping.Anyway me and him kinda "settle" our problems but there still got a scar between us.I still don't know whether he still love me like he used to not.Today after working go find Jia Yun,then after awhile we saw Ying and Jay.Suddenly my heart hurts cause both of them let me remind of me and him...how sweet when both of us being together...feel like want to see him straight away.Ying and Jay accompany me go Parkson find him.At first I'm very relax but I getting more scare when is going to reach.When reach there i just stand at a place where he can't see me,saw him that time i realize that he a bit thin already then he cut his hair.Just see him one minute then i follow Ying and Jay go back to Dataran.Think till awhile I told Ying I want to find him again so i turn back again.This time i stop in front of the counter there and look at him.Saw him doing something and when he look up,he saw me already.His reaction is like how come you will come like that,that kind of a bit shocking look.He asked me "zuo me" silently quite far away from me.I just shook my head and smile at him.I wanted to walk near and talk to him but I don't dare anymore cause i saw some of the supervisors there and scared he don't like.So i just stood there for a few minutes and he continue to do his stuff.I didn't say much and walk away cause i feel like crying...don't know why i got this kind of feeling...maybe miss him too much and we didn't meet for like almost two weeks...plus I don't want to cry in front of him.Reach Dataran and I go find Jia Yun again cause want to tell her I saw him already.Tell her half way my tears almost rolling down from my cheeks but i control it.When walk back i cry....i miss christmas eve that night....those things u said to me...i love you...lots lots...

Pie & Princess

I heard your name before when I was young
But I didn't bothered to notice you
Starting from that depressed year of mine
When me and him were together
You appeared in my life
You're always there when everything falls apart
And it seems like the world is crashing at my feet
You make me feel so secure everyday
Since then we became best friend
You said you only trust one person in this world which is me
I'm very happy when u said that to me
We became very close and thing started to change
Because I'm starting to fall for you
But you loved her very much that time
And I only can love you silently
Even though it hurts me when u talked about her
I hate the way she treated you
But in the end we be together naturally until now
Unfortunately problems begin to appear non stop
You told me you thought of her before when you being with me
Although is long time ago but you just stab me with a knife
You message one of my friends without telling me
I feel like I'm being betray but you didn't care and insist that you are right
You don't know what's limit that I'm talking about
You said those limits will spoil your friendships
But do you know that it will spoil our relationship??
You won't eat with me together when we're having break time
You don't let me find you even you are having break time
Since then we argue everyday cause can't communicate nicely
You don't find me anymore like you used to
Every sleepless night I keep staring at my phone for your "attendance"
I'm tired to be last one to know your things
You told me that you still love me like before
But how come I can't feel it?
You left me in the cold everyday
How cold could you be again?
What would you do it you were me?
I'm better off if it's a mystery
I'm starting to believe him that I'm just a snack to you
Please don't say it is so
Tell my heart it's not goodbye
I wanna kiss your lips forever
Stay with me...this is what i need...please??

~heartache~
~ MJ ~

college's life

First of all, i want to say sorry to mai jiun coz i din update our blog since spm i think. lol i hav read tru all the blogs which were written by MJ. Wat's make me to update tis blog is coz of tis >>
PS:ting when you only want to update this blog??!! everytime i update only.... chicken ass!!!!
LOL!! kla blogging now. chill :D
Tru FB, i saw her relationship status there change to it's complicated and some of her posts. So i agak agak noe wat's happenning. Hm.. as the saying goes, " the moon will become full after it wanes. " chill MJ.
I really hope tat u n nan come inti to study le... march intake. Everyday in class, act lyk a quiet guai guai gal.. in fact, im nt tat quiet type wan lo,haha i can be very noisy n talkative if my gang is here. =( meet some new friends, bt nt so close to them yet. If both u come, then we can go library study, eat tog, n hav lots of funs!! bt, now, haiz... MJ!! come la!!! ish XD
I miss my friends so much.. MJ, JY, Nan, Fen, Jen, Wong, Ying,Yanxi, Enthal, n of coz Perlyn XD our great perlyn. :P i miss u all so much !!!
Hw's life in inti?? many ppl asked. At first, i'll say, i enjoy the freedom over here. bt now, after 1 week dy, i start to get bored. coz no close friend over here. It's so great if MJ is beside me now. stay tog, chat with her or do assignment till midnite Woo~~ den everymorning wake her up(surely im the one who gotta wake her up) DEFINITELY! LOL!! den walk to sch tog. n enjoy the college's life over here. bt yet... T.T hey, when u r reading tis blog rite, think agn, INTI!! it's really a nice place. The environment is good conducive for studying. ^^ haiz.. MAIJIUN!!! =(
I was taking art stream last week, bt i change my major dy lol > Sc stream. i found tat im more interested in sc than art. so lyk tat lo. there r 42 students in my class now. @.@ chemistry.. the calculations gosh!! it's harder n more complicated than F5 wan.. n i missed the 1st class. so very blur nw. luckily the lecturer is very nice n good. she gonna giv us some classes for the new students who didnt attend her class for the 1st week. yay =) n it reminds me of PN POH!! i miss her so much XD N now, all the bio/che reports hav to do it all by urself. no more copying from the books. the hardest part is discussions.
PS: MJ, i'll update tis blog when im free =)
~take care~
~written by ting~

Heartache

This year is definitely not my year
So many unhappy things happen to me
God...please tell me why not other person but me??
Have been working for almost two weeks
And I'm already stressing out like hell
Working with one of my friends until both of us unhappy
Mostly is because of our boss
Wanted to share my feelings with you
But all you do is giving me problems in this relationship
I admit I get jealous easily....I scold you badly when I'm mad
All you did is blame it all on me
Only want me to care about your feelings
But what about mine??do you even care!!?NOT ONCE!!
You told me to be more open-minded...lol....FINE!!
Told you that you must have limit between your friends which are girls
But you told me how to limit...fuck!!don't you act stupid in front of me okay
Don't know how to limit then go have sex with those bitches
Message with her didn't tell me...fine!!
Asked you who started the conversation first....you said both also got
And the message u save it in your hp
Want to let the time pass only u can delete it??
What the hell is this!!??conclusion is you still think of her
Asked me to don't call you cause you're tired!?
If you really love that person,no matter how tired you will still want to talk to her
You're just giving some lame excuses again
One hour break if find me don't have time to eat??
You think I don't know she work at mp there is it!!??
You giving me this excuse because you don't want me to know you eating with her during your break time is it!!
You dare do then why don't you admit!!
If don't have and you blame me cause i don't believe you de hua
You know why i don't believe you??
Because all the things u done make me don't believe you anymore
Everything keep to yourself....don't tell me that you don't want to hurt me as an excuse again
I'm tired of your attitude!!!
Asked me to change??!!you don't have the right to say this
Because you also didn't change yours!!
Plus everytime you just giving me insecure feelings
Maybe Lix is right after all
You just treat me as your snack and after that throw it away
Fennie and Nan told me you become like this cause you don't love me anymore...
I don't want to believe them...but how can i don't??
You told me you love me but now like this....
You love someone else already and you don't love me anymore is it??
Please tell me is not....I'm begging you....
I don't know what to do anymore
The more I say you...the more we argue and ended up crying
I just want you to know that I care about you a lots...maybe too over
I become like this cause I really scared of losing you
Because I feel insecure
And I can't compete with others....I know I'll lose in the end
Remember the feelings when she being with him??or you can't understand her??
This is how I feel from the starting until now
Lou gong zai and lou po zai will have a happy ending ma??

~still love you~