JiunEe

I know I have met him in the past,

When we were still young.

Handsome,cute,clever,loving,caring,

And most of all perfect.

That's all I can say about him.

That night,

January 11,in year 2008.

I finally have him in my life,

Happy?very happy?or very very happy?

That feeling very hard to describe.

Remember when we first kissed?

Your lips touches mine.

Can you hear my heartbeat?

Is beating faster and faster every seconds.

Remember when we first went out together?

My hands locked to yours and yours locked to mine.

All eyes were on us every time.

But these sweet memories fly in a blink of an eye.

They came in and interfered,

They just can't sit back and watch how our world goes.

My hun,

I need you more than air

Our world disappear because of them?

It's just not fair.

I waited for you every time,

But all you do is just let me down.

I'm starting to see that we will never be.

I don't know if I should give up hope and stop trying,

Or if I should never stop trying but keep on crying.

I want to hate you so I can move on,

But I have been in this crazy game for way too long.

Today,

Hun and dear still exist.

Our broken world is heal once again.

But there's scars that won't disappear,

Because they still won't stop trying but to interfere.

All we can is to do things behind their backs.

I become more sensitive than before,

Your family,girls that appear around you,

I hate it so much.

I keep asking myself....

Why why why and more why??

Maybe I need you to care about me more,

Maybe I need security from you more,

Maybe I want you to love me more,

Most of all is I want you to become mine!!

Me who used to believe in fairy tales,

Already stop dreaming and open my eyes.

My mind and heart ache,

When I'm thinking of my crashed dreams.

Dreams where just you and me,

There's just only happy ending.

I don't know how long I can hold on,

I will try my very best,

But you must always remember those promises,

Do it but not just say it.

My only wish is to be with you.

I always hope when I told you that I love you,

You will drop everything and run to me,

Maybe even someday you get on one knee and say,

"Dear,I love you,will you marry me?"

I'm waiting....waiting....

Waiting for this day to come true....

❤heart you❤

~by MJ~