spm is just around the corner...left 1 more week only...but i still can consider haven prepare finish...just finish studying bio and all form4 sej only....others touch also haven touch...how to die!!??tell me la...haiz!!everyday at home will slp so dis few days keep goin to library and food court in mp juz to have group study wif my frens...can at least concentrate more but study a bit slow only.i thought my sis know how i feel all this time...but I WAS WRONG!!!both of us keep argue cuz of dis prob...she tot i goin out and play...told her i was studying wif frens.she said y my frens cannot come my hse and study,muz go out...think all my frens lyk to come my hse meh!!if u in malacca u will keep asking my frens questions lyk our papa and mama...plz la...u dont wan face i also wan face de k!!u think u're my sis then can simply scold me de way u lyk is it!?i ady very stress,suffered and u still give me one stab summore.keep giving me pressure....i cant stand it tat much lyk u can.i knw among 7 siblings i'm de most lousy to u all!!!but u cant blame me k..i ady try my very best and what u want me to do summore!!today at food court saw my primary fren wif her bf studying together...her bf rly rly very caring....saw them lyk dis it reminds me of hun....haiz....long time ago jor.haiz...pie ar...i can say facing probs now...everytime i have prob u will be by my side when i need you....but now....i dont think so i can rely to u jor...i feel lyk im not welcome to u anymore and there's sumthing between us...mayb u didnt feel it cuz u dont care about me ba...but i can feel it...i everytime think in positive way to make me feel better...u make me change my mind after u told me u mostly go form6...i got a feeling tat i will go too cuz of u...but i scared i will regret.i rly dont knw wat u're thinking all dis time....lyk nan say libra everytime dont knw wat they rly want...well u knw wat im goin to say??....fucking libra!!!ish ish ish!!!rly pek chek when u gv me cold shoulder!!!dont wan chap me then totally dont chap me.dont sumtimes chap me and care about me....then after tat disappear lyk tat.haiz~maybe u busy studying also la...cant blame u...pluz is im de one who zhi xiang qing yuan...and u kinda lied to me...dont knw is u rly 4gt or rly lied to me about it....i rly very very sad after nan told me about it.i dont wan to talk to u anymore dy...i hurt dao bo feeling liao...4gt about me in ur life ba.other gals are much better than me anyway...pluz i dont deserve to have u cuz u too popular for me to touch...but i rly wanted tat we can stay forever lyk how we used to be during tat beautiful night...
~crashed ❤~
~by MJ~
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