fucking bloody life

spm is just around the corner...left 1 more week only...but i still can consider haven prepare finish...just finish studying bio and all form4 sej only....others touch also haven touch...how to die!!??tell me la...haiz!!everyday at home will slp so dis few days keep goin to library and food court in mp juz to have group study wif my frens...can at least concentrate more but study a bit slow only.i thought my sis know how i feel all this time...but I WAS WRONG!!!both of us keep argue cuz of dis prob...she tot i goin out and play...told her i was studying wif frens.she said y my frens cannot come my hse and study,muz go out...think all my frens lyk to come my hse meh!!if u in malacca u will keep asking my frens questions lyk our papa and mama...plz la...u dont wan face i also wan face de k!!u think u're my sis then can simply scold me de way u lyk is it!?i ady very stress,suffered and u still give me one stab summore.keep giving me pressure....i cant stand it tat much lyk u can.i knw among 7 siblings i'm de most lousy to u all!!!but u cant blame me k..i ady try my very best and what u want me to do summore!!today at food court saw my primary fren wif her bf studying together...her bf rly rly very caring....saw them lyk dis it reminds me of hun....haiz....long time ago jor.haiz...pie ar...i can say facing probs now...everytime i have prob u will be by my side when i need you....but now....i dont think so i can rely to u jor...i feel lyk im not welcome to u anymore and there's sumthing between us...mayb u didnt feel it cuz u dont care about me ba...but i can feel it...i everytime think in positive way to make me feel better...u make me change my mind after u told me u mostly go form6...i got a feeling tat i will go too cuz of u...but i scared i will regret.i rly dont knw wat u're thinking all dis time....lyk nan say libra everytime dont knw wat they rly want...well u knw wat im goin to say??....fucking libra!!!ish ish ish!!!rly pek chek when u gv me cold shoulder!!!dont wan chap me then totally dont chap me.dont sumtimes chap me and care about me....then after tat disappear lyk tat.haiz~maybe u busy studying also la...cant blame u...pluz is im de one who zhi xiang qing yuan...and u kinda lied to me...dont knw is u rly 4gt or rly lied to me about it....i rly very very sad after nan told me about it.i dont wan to talk to u anymore dy...i hurt dao bo feeling liao...4gt about me in ur life ba.other gals are much better than me anyway...pluz i dont deserve to have u cuz u too popular for me to touch...but i rly wanted tat we can stay forever lyk how we used to be during tat beautiful night...

~crashed ❤~

~by MJ~

Memorable 5Sc2 Farewell '09

To my Friends(5Sc2) n Teachers :

分 享

时间已做了选择

什麽人叫做朋友

偶而碰头 心情却能一点就通

因为我们曾有过

理想类似的生活

太多感受 绝非三言两语能形容

可能有时我们顾虑太多

太多决定需要我们去选择

担心会犯错

难免会受挫

幸好一路上 有你陪我

与你分享的快乐 胜过独自拥有

至今我仍深深感动

好友如同一扇窗

能让视野不同

与你分享的快乐 胜过独自拥有

至今我仍深深感动

好友如同一扇门

让世界(变)开阔

~thankyou 5Sc2~

~ting~

Beautiful Night

2day all my frens went to sibaraku for farewell party.well me de only one in de gang didnt went.kinda disappointed but bo bian...i promised my mum tat i wont go.told nan about dis during bm ttn and d most hurtful thing she ever said to me....she said dis shows tat we all are not important to u...haiz...know she not purposely say dis de juz tersay jor...but im still very sad.saw their pics during farewell and i knw tat they enjoyed themselves a lot.im happy for them.they have their sweet memories i have mine too.i wont forget 2day....1st time in my life walking in the rain at night with you.u told me tat u saw leng lui yesterday and wanted to hav their hp number.....purposely tell me dis to make me jealous....didnt admit in front of u...the truth is YES IM JEALOUS!!!u ady knw still need to say out and kek me.ish!!there's a pipe spoilt then de water kip flowing out...a lot of water summore.u asked me to help u take ur stuff...i tot u wan do wat...but cant believe tat u carry me on ur back and walk across those water...and u said im very heavy....qian da!!!but i wish tat u will carry me 4ever and ever and ever lyk dis.the rain becomes heavier,then we tou tou go to my hse without my bro noticing us....both of us sitting in de garden and looking at de sky...talk talk awhile then kip quite jor...and tat sweet feelings...we have been lyk dis for 3 hours then u went back jor.time pass by so fast....is juz awhile only...didnt wanna let go of u when u wanted to go back....hope time could freeze at tat moment and both of us remain lyk dis forever.remember tat u asked me wat im thinking?i didnt tell u about it cuz i knw it make me more sad only...it will never happen....even if happen dy also wont last long de ba...pluz there's a lot of gals out there that i cant even compared wif them.no nid to compared also lose till very chia lat...think till here feel lyk crying dy.wanted to tell u about my feelings but dont have courage to say it out.cuz i dont wan to be a dreamer lyk i used to be anymore.hope u knw my feelings when u c dis...dont knw whether u have the same feelings as me not??i will always remember dis beautiful night...and continue to be lyk dis....will u??hope u will too ❤

~missing u too~

by MJ