yesterday night didn't slept well
don't know why keep waking up in the midnight
sleep until today 1pm only wake up
saw my handphone got few messages but is not from him
feel like want to throw my handphone
after awhile he finally called me
heard a lots of sound and very noisy
i know he sure at outside again
only talked for awhile then hang up the phone
on my facebook only realized today is her birthday
suddenly my heart sank and im kinda scared
he told me before he want to go out with her on her birthday
but that time he said this is just to make me jealous... but don't know is real or not
he going out whole day still haven message me or anything
everytime waited for his message.... stupid girl me!!!
feel like scolding him even though without any good reasons
just wanna do it to him only.... know is very unfair to him
but if i keep being like this.... one day i will go crazy
ying said im too care about him and she scared wait he can't take it anymore
im too care because im scared i'll lose him
and im very sensitive with things about him.... especially when come to girls
feel like crying now.... luckily got ying comfort and accompany me today
only now i feel better a bit

~anti-jealousy
~MJ