how come you won't listen to me everytime??
all those words u said... did really hurt me a lots
although you didn't mean it or you just joking only
do you ever care about my problems that i'm facing before??
everything that is about me??
i don't think u really care about it.... know why??
cause friends is your number one in your heart.... not me...
both of us won't give way to each other
in the end both of us keep arguing this few days
i know you try to tahan my attitude but u can't tahan me any longer
just want to confess and share my feelings and problems to you
but everytime u like don't want to... if is your friends... i think u will accompany them like the way i want you to...
if we continue being like this... something will happen...

~MJ

yesterday night didn't slept well
don't know why keep waking up in the midnight
sleep until today 1pm only wake up
saw my handphone got few messages but is not from him
feel like want to throw my handphone
after awhile he finally called me
heard a lots of sound and very noisy
i know he sure at outside again
only talked for awhile then hang up the phone
on my facebook only realized today is her birthday
suddenly my heart sank and im kinda scared
he told me before he want to go out with her on her birthday
but that time he said this is just to make me jealous... but don't know is real or not
he going out whole day still haven message me or anything
everytime waited for his message.... stupid girl me!!!
feel like scolding him even though without any good reasons
just wanna do it to him only.... know is very unfair to him
but if i keep being like this.... one day i will go crazy
ying said im too care about him and she scared wait he can't take it anymore
im too care because im scared i'll lose him
and im very sensitive with things about him.... especially when come to girls
feel like crying now.... luckily got ying comfort and accompany me today
only now i feel better a bit

~anti-jealousy
~MJ

Christmas Eve

yesterday is christmas eve

first time in my life celebrate with my friends till so late

and also my love one

in the morning went out with him

already watched avatar in singapore 

but still watched it again with him because i know he wanted to watch it 

but this time is in 3D.... watched until my eyes pain

after that we go disturb jia yun when she is working

she keep talking and entertained us :)

saw those cute couple key chains.... feel like buying it but in the end didn't buy

got t-shirts and bags also... all very nice

then at night before went to fennie's house

me and him bought ice-cream and he choose cherry yogurt flavour

walao... the taste is like strawberry flavour.... YUCK!!

yah nan didn't came for fennie's christmas eve party... kinda disappointed...

but nevermind la... still got ying and him to accompany me ^^

when exchange present that time... when is his turn to take a number....

don't know who shouted my name first.... then after that everyone shout...

my face is like tomato know... really really very embarrassing!!!

but luckily my back faced him... he didn't saw it... haha!!

after that all of us went to dp field there.... then someone suggested that we play dare game....

and guess wat... is start from him first...!!!

fennie suggested that me and him dance in front of them.... oh my gosh..!!!

then they also got ask ying and jay to dance... but in the end four of us didn't do it la...LOL!

after that we went to St. Paul's hill until is christmas lo

me and him talked about our future and all those things

im very scared that we will end... almost wanna cried out but luckily i can hold it

had the most memorable christmas eve but he make me jealous AGAIN

but i don't think he noticed it because he sure will say friends only ma...

then that time i sure speechless... plus ying asked me to tahan...

wtf... very bo song le.... damn it!!

around 1am he walked me home...

didn't talked much to him because im very cold and tired

he even touched my leg to confirm if im really cold... very swt le... ==

he got reunion tonight with his primary friends....

haiz... sure very close wif those girls again....

don't think don't think!!!! if not like ying said my blood vessel will burst

but still i hate it a lots... at least draw a line la.... my ren nai xing also got limit de k!!

haiz... still hope he has a memorable reunion tonight

PS:ting when you only want to update this blog??!! everytime i update only.... chicken ass!!!

~anti-jealousy

~MJ

 

today is my 1st day in singapore.went to de newest shopping centre and bought a lots of things for christmas.i love singapore!!!!goin to stay here till 23rd of dec then de next time can celebrate christmas wif frens.wee!!!but in de same time....haiz...chat wif him in fb...wat he meant by his personal items and every f6 gals....make me comfuse..really lyk wat my frens said he's playing me??he even scold me naive....fucking asshole..!!!!wateva!!!dont wan to think about it.if he really lied or treat me lyk a toy...i wont 4gv him forever!!!!